I have been thinking a lot lately about what I'm creating for my life in 2019.
The New Year is always my favorite time of the year and one of my favorite holidays. I have always loved new beginnings and fresh starts.
I'm always excited to create goals and to look to the end of the upcoming year to imagine where I'll be standing and what I'll have accomplished by then.
Plus, it's always a great feeling to look back at the end of the year at all of the things that came to fruition, and then to see where there's still work to do.
Usually it's incredibly easy for me to make a long list of things I want to do and accomplish. There are always plenty of things that I want to improve upon in my life and within myself.
There's always lots of work to DO!
Right now though, that way of living and creating goals feels warn out.
Lately I have found myself in this new dichotomy ~ between the familiar habit of wanting to begin to create new goals and the exciting new pull to NOT create goals at all!
Sounds weird, I know. Feels weird, too.
The last few years have been completely life changing for me in more ways than I could possibly list right now. I have been so intently focused on healing and growing and getting myself on the right path - MY OWN path.
I have spent most of my entire life DOING a LOT; taking action, striving for what's next and working on how I'm going to make myself and my life better; surviving things and overcoming struggles; always looking for ways to up the game.
I'm ready to take things down a notch. Detox from the habit of 'busy.'
Not to say there won't still be action and lots of progress next year, I know like never before that there will be.
I guess I've learned that I don't have to try so hard anymore. I'm ready for it to look and feel a lot different now. Like, maybe this whole 'life' thing can be a little easier. There's a concept!
All of my hard work has paid off! I have come to a place where I have more peace inside than I have in a long time. Maybe ever? I love the life I've created, the things that I'm working toward, the woman that I've become for myself and my family. I have become clear with myself about what I want/don't want. I know where I'm going in many ways, and I'm okay with the ways that I don't know yet.
I have this pretty clear knowing that 2019 is going to be pretty great. I'm sure there will be ups and downs as there always are, but becoming solid within myself has created a whole new ground for playing in this life.
So this year, instead of creating another long list of to-do's, I'm creating my first list of to-be's.
My new goal is to BE more by DOing less~ and by being more, the doing will come more easily!
It's time to settle into the self that I've worked so hard to become - that I am.
Be more present... to feel more, live more, love more.
Experience the moments instead of letting them pass me by.
To breathe in... smell the life that dances around me.
Taste my food with my soul more.
Let my soul and my self be touched by the earth.
Stretch outside and beyond my comfort.
Expand inside of my experience of life.
See new places. Do new things.
Run my fingers through this existence.
Let my life be touched... and maybe touch yours, too.
Feel myself sitting in my chair, writing these words.
Get swept away in the arms of my loved ones as much as possible.
Let words and love and life flow through me more often, with ease.
Feel my feet on the ground of life.
Let my heart lead the way.
Stop being so busy.
May you find some guidance here for your upcoming year as well, and may we be in more joy on this journey together.